Friday, November 26, 2010

ఆలోచన - ఆవేదన / Aalochana - Aavedana

నా  ఆలోచనలకు  పదాలు  వెతుకుతున్న 
నా  ఆవేదన  కి  అర్ధం  వెతుకుతున్న 
జీవితం  అనే  ప్రయాణం  లో  నా  దారి   వెతుకుతున్న 
నిజాన్ని  వెతుకుతున్న, నిజంగా  వెతుకుతున్న 
డబ్బు  సుఖం  కాదనీ  కొనలెదనీ  చదివించి  మెప్పించి 
ప్రాణం  మానం  వదులుకొని  డబ్బు  వెంట  పిచ్చి  కుక్క  లా  పడుతున్టే  
నేర్చుకున్నది  తప్పో ... రాబోయేది  ముప్పో  తేల్చలేక  బిత్తర పోతున్న 
తప్పని  నేర్చినదే   గొప్పని  చేస్తుంటే   
ప్రశ్నించాల? ప్రశ్నించుకోవాల?
మార్చాల? మారిపోవాల?
ఫలం  ఆశించక  కృషి  చేయమని  శాస్త్రాలు  నేర్చి  మరిచి 
దారి  కన్నా  గమ్యం  ముఖ్యం  అని  పక్క  త్రోవ  పడుతుంటే 
వేసేది  ముందడుగో ... చేరేది  వినాసపు  మడుగు  తోచక  దిక్కులు  చూస్తున్న  
న్యాయమని  నియమించి  దాని  పై  నవ్వుతుంటే 
ఆపాల? ఆగిపోవాల?
భయపెట్టాల? భయపడాల?
నా  ఆలోచనలకు  అర్ధం  ఉందా అని  ఆలోచిస్తున్న 
నా  ఆవేదన  కి  అంతం  ఉందా  అని  ఆలోచిస్తున్న 
జీవితం  అనే  ప్రయాణం  లో  నా  దారి  సరైనదేనా  అని  ఆలోచిస్తున్న 
నిజం  అనేది  ఉందా  అని  ఆలోచిస్తున్న, నిజంగా  ఆలోచిస్తున్న.

Text in English:
Naa aalochnalaku padaalu vethukuthunna
Naa aavedana ki ardham vethukuthunna
Jeevitham ane prayaanam lo naa daari edani vethukuthunna
Nijaaanni vethukuthunna, nijanga vethukuthunna
Dabbu sukham kaadanee konaledanee chadivinchi meppinchi
Praanam maanam vadulukoni dabbu venta pichi kukka la paduthuntey
Nerchukunnadi thappo... Raaboyedi muppo thelchaleka bithiri pothunna
Thappani nerchindey goppani chesthuntey
Prashninchaala? Prashninchukovaala?
Maarchaala? Maaripovaala?
Phalam aashinchaka krushi cheyamani shashtraalu nerchi marichi
daari kanna gamyam mukhyam ani chedu/pakka throva paduthuntey
Vesedi mundadugo... Cheredi vinaasapu madugu tochaka dikkulu chusthunna 
Nyaayamani niyaminchi daani pai navvuthuntey
Aapaala? Aagipovaala?
Bhayapettaala? Bhyapadaala?
Naa aalochanlaku ardham unda ani alochisthunna
Naa aavedana ki antham unda ani alochisthunna
Jeevitham ane prayaanam lo naa daari saraindena ani alochisthunna
Nijam anedi unda ani alochisthunna, nijanga aalochisthunna.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Personal Electronics’ (R)evolution

As a child, I used to wake up to the alarm of an analog clock. Now, like every other person, I wake up to a selected song playing on my mobile phone. What’s more? If I feel sleepy, I snooze and sleep a little longer. How convenient? A feature not available on the analog clocks and probably that’s why they were more effective in waking us up. This way without realizing we have grown intimate with electronics around us. Our personal computers, MP3 players, mobile phones mean much more than real people. We share our most happiest and saddest moments with our personal electronics. We turn to our iPods to cheer us up when we feel down.
These changes mean a lot to the human race more than we care to acknowledge because these have already begun to dictate our behavior, social interaction and expression. For example, many abbreviations have become a part of our verbal vocabulary like FYI, BTW.  We often hear our earlier generations complaining of shrinking social boundaries. We hardly know or interact with our neighbors. We, in-fact, prefer to use the leisure time to listen to songs on our iPods or network on ‘social networking’ sites (unless the neighbor is some very hot girl). The definition of ‘Social’ is changing by the day. Our neighbors no longer by default become our friends just because we stay close by, as it used to be in our childhood. We choose our friends. We choose who we want to be close to. Now, the question. Is this good or bad?
This is good because it gives us a choice. This is dangerous because it restricts our interaction to similar minded people of the same profession of the same age resulting in a very narrow perspective about things. 
With the advent of the personal electronic devices we are increasingly giving importance to privacy. We prefer talking to friends on mobile phones in private than participating in a family discussion. 
We have also become dependent on these devices and they have begun to determine our mood. Imagine your computer crashes or you lose your mobile phone. You start to feel lonely and are depressed till that problem is fixed. Does this mean we have started to react to devices emotionally? 
Apart from all these, these personal electronic devices have induced a sense of competition and craving to own them. With many companies releasing newer better products by the month, the craving is only increasing.
I wonder if using these devices for a long time will bring about changes in the human anatomy too. I am talking evolution here.
To sum it up, the personal electronics have begun to change the dynamics of individuals and society.  If too many changes happen, then probably our children and grandchildren will read about the “Personal Electronics’ Revolution” like we did about the “Industrial Revolution.” While all the changes are being welcomed in the name of change and modernization, it would only be wise to understand and estimate the impact and the repercussions before giving in to them.

Monday, August 23, 2010

"What's Your Problem With GOD?"

My friend always keeps asking me, What’s your problem with God? 
Each time, I wave. Let it go, I say. Then, one day I decide that I will tell him all about it. 
I come to his place. He points a gun at me and asks again. I say, that is precisely what I came here for. He then, asks me to sit down and I sit down. 
Still pointing his gun at me, he walks closer. When you are close enough, the probability of shooting right on target becomes one. He asks me, why do you not believe in God?
I gulp down a mouthful of spit and say, it’s a choice and I chose not to. Then, he starts pushing the gun into my mouth. 
I say, I cannot speak with the gun in my mouth and he says, what. I gesture with my finger and he moves the gun away. Why do I have to believe in God, I ask. 
You have to because whether you believe in God or not, He is the supreme most power, he shouts. I ask in a cool voice, when I don’t believe HIM, how does he become the supremest power? He gets worked up again. Don’t mess with me, he screams. 
I ask him, who told you about God? He thinks for a while and then says, everyone. I stare at him and he probes himself a little more and then says, my mother. I smile and ask, who told her? 
He raises the gun again. Actually, its a pistol. 
Probably, her mother...my grand mother, he says. I ask him the same question over and over again. Who told her?
He then freaks out. What’s the point you are getting at? He screams kicking the chair he was sitting on. I say, all I am asking is how did that first person ever know that God is there. He thinks for a while and says, probably he read somewhere. 
Where?
I don’t know, he shouts. Ok, if he read somewhere then somebody must have written it. Who told the person who wrote it? I ask.
He pulls down his chair again and sits down. Either, he knew it himself or somebody must have told him or God himself told him, he says. He then adds, all this better add up to something or else I will empty this gun into your mouth and you will bleed like a... 
He pauses and thinks. I ask, bleed like a what? 
He says, I don’t know. 
I say, Ok. Consider this. What if the first guy who told about God, told a lie?
He asks me, why would he?
I say, I don’t know. 
Just then, I recollected a teacher of mine and her small yet moving discourse on God.
How many of you believe in God? She asked and the entire class jumped on its feet. We were probably in our sixth class. 
Oh! So everyone does. Can somebody tell me why?
Nobody did. I had an answer but I refrained because I thought it was silly.
Ok. Not a problem. How many of you believe that air exists?  Again, all hands went up and again she asked the same question. This time, the entire class shouted in unison, “Because even though we cannot see the air we can feel it.”
Very good. Now can you see God? 
One kid stood up and said yes. In the photo frames at my home in the puja room and in temples.
Our teacher called him a bright kid. I felt jealous. I too had the same answer in mind.
Listen kids, I have a very interesting story to tell. 
Pin drop silence.
Once upon a time, their lived a man named God. God lived in troubled times when people killed each other for food and people began to fear each other. The most powerful was the most feared and he exploited their fear. So, God came up with this story and told a shepherd about it. God told the shepherd that there is a supreme power that created everything on Earth and that it would punish all the men who kill or steal food, that it would help the good hard working people and that it was the supreme most and no body could challenge it and if any one did, it destroyed them. The shepherd liked the story as it gave him Hope. He told the story to one of the men who tried to steal food from him. The thief Feared the story was true for he knew what he was doing was wrong. The most powerful once ordered the thief to steal for him. The thief refused and narrated him the story and he became Humble as he was convinced that their was someone more superior than him and more importantly no body wanted to take any chances. One night, when the shepherd was telling the story to his grandchildren, they asked him who told him about the story and he replied, “GOD himself!” 
Many years later, many more versions of the story arose. Few people became merchants of the story and spread it to distant lands but told the story as they liked. Soon, the original story was lost. 
Hungry artists drew pictures and merchants sold them as Gods. Soon, a million Gods were born. Merchants then built various kinds of buildings and placed God in them. Merchants then began to sell wishes and forgiveness for their sins in and out of these buildings in various forms. Life then changed. Everything became simple. Every sin could be committed and then a forgiveness be bought. Laziness could be afforded with a little money to buy wishes. Life then became competitive as these merchants grew by the day. A too simple life then turned complicated. With nothing more to do with God, these merchants started pitching one God over the other and the loyalists of these merchants began to war and kill each other without any Fear for they believed they were fighting for God and how could God punish somebody who is fighting for him? All those families whose men and women were killed kept losing Hope and strength for God himself became the reason for their despair. The, finally a day came when God lost all meaning. 
I was angered by the story and shot my arm up and asked, “How do you know all this?”
My teacher smiled. She said to all the children pointing her finger to me, do this. 
Everybody shouted in unison again, “Do what?”
Question! Question everything you hear or read. That is the single most important thing in life and with a sigh, she added, Today you kids learnt the greatest lesson of your life.
Now, I cannot recollect who that teacher was or what she taught us or what her name was. It probably doesn’t matter as long as I remember what she said. 
So, you think you are f***** clever and that you proved that God does not exist? He screams till his vocal chords hurt and I come out of my memory land.
I reply, I never said God does not exist. May be he does, may be doesn’t. All I am saying is that why not question it, instead of following blindly.
He screams again and I put my palms to my ears but, could still hear him.
What’s the point when you can’t say for sure whether God exists or not?
I smile. He wonders. I keep smiling. He keeps wondering and the gun slips out of his hand. I mean the pistol. I bend over and he thinks, I will pick it up and makes a quick move to reach it first. But, I don’t. 
I then say, this is why. This is why!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Living in the age of Instant Marriages and Honor Killings

Life is always a paradox. A contradiction. On the one side we have so much technological progress that our gadgets are shrinking by the hour and on the other we are struggling to break the shackles of the age old traditions that have essentially changed their meaning in today’s world. Why is this so? The answer is a straight and a simple one. Let us try to explore as we go on.
The world has recently taken to a fascination for everything “Instant.” From Instant Noodles to Instant Upma to Instant Photos. So, is the case with marriage. Let me first explain the Inception of Instant marriage. In the late 90’s (Y2K fever) when there was a huge export of skilled labour (read software professionals) from India to countries such as the US of A, a new trend of marriage emerged. The boy who worked out of India would manage to take a month off and fly back to India. His family had only a month to get him married and that included selecting a match for him and completing a million other traditions and pujas before finally packing off the couple to whichever country the male partner worked. Almost everyone got married in this fashion in that period. In some circumstances, the engagement was even conducted, while the Groom was still abroad, with the Bride alone.  Mind you, I am not exaggerating. Such marriages probably made sense, in whichever proportion, at that time.
Things have changed now (not that there is a lesser export of software professionals but otherwise) but little on the marriage front. Not very long ago a few of my friends marriages were fixed in a matter of minutes and the nuptial knot tied within a month and that too with both the bride and groom staying in India (no offense meant guys...). What’s the hurry? Marriage is the union of two people for life. Isn’t it only fair to give both the people a decent time period to learn about each other and decide if they want to live together?
The things that get the most attention in these weddings are the family background, the balance sheets, “dowry” (Don’t even get me started on dowry), groom’s job and salary, bride’s look and a few others none of which can effectively reflect upon the person. Effectively by the time they get married, they are still strangers to each other. However, no one in the society has any problems with this. Not even the parents of the bride and the groom. Everybody takes comfort in the fact that both the bride and the groom are from the same caste. (So, What!?)
On the other hand, when their offspring marries the person he/she loves who is most naturally outside their caste (There are so many castes in India that it is practically impossible to fall in love with someone in your own caste), they have no regrets or second thoughts in hacking them to death. Welcome to Honor Killing. Parents and brothers have no qualms about cold-bloodedly murdering someone in their own bloodline and that too in the name of the honor of their caste. When has caste become bigger than our siblings/offsprings? 
                                 Instant marriages and Honor Killings are different edges (extremities) of the same knife (caste). While Instant Marriages gratify Caste, Honor Killings glorify caste. Or, do they?  Caste is nothing but a tradition passed on from ages. An impediment. Caste made sense in that age when a barber’s son became a barber and a washer man's son became a washer man.  This is the age of barber’s sons topping the IIT and IIM entrance tests (don’t you read the newspaper headlines?) where caste has a very little meaning except for reservations and dirty politics. I came to know about my caste only when I was appearing for EAMCET (Engineering entrance test) and later got admission in a good college on reservation. Just take a minute here to recollect when you first came to know about your caste. In which circumstance? 
Caste is the biggest example of tradition passed on for ages without questioning. Let us begin to question our traditions. We, Indians, take a lot of pride in our traditions and this is what stops our questioning. Whenever somebody starts questioning, he/she is comfortably tagged “spoilt” or “western.” It’s time that we act maturely and stop taking everything for granted. It’s time we question the status quo. It’s time we upgraded our traditions or, our kids and their kids will waste their childhood learning about our evil-practices like we wasted ours learning about “Sati” and “Untouchability.” 
It’s never too late!
P.S: Even today caste is the major determinant of the election results. The leader from the most populous community wins the election. Is caste a merit on which we chose our leaders? 
I am aware that there have been many articles on this subject but, this is an attempt to vent my frustration and probably make more people think.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

The (in)significance of Kasab’s sentence

Amir Ajmal Kasab, the lone surviving terrorist of the 26/11 massacre, recently flooded the news channels, the main papers, the editorials, live discussions on TV, offices, bedrooms, living rooms, cafe’s etc.. The reason?

He has finally been brought to justice after 17 months. He will be hanged to death. The Kasab who walked into the Chatrapathi Shivaji Terminus in his cool black T-shirt and cargoes, with a gun in his hand pumping bullets into innocent people, waiting for their trains to attend a marriage, appear for an exam, begin their vacation, go back home, sending them to their graves long before they were due with a cold, emotionless exterior has finally been brought to justice. Or, has he been?

A number of people saw their loved ones dissolve into death in their own blood pools and life for them has never been the same after witnessing the most violent and brutal scene of their life. For them, the verdict is the revenge. One man’s death for the bruised and lost lives of hundreds is not justice or revenge in any way. Does the killer regret what he did? Does he feel sick that he is responsible for mayhem in many lives? Does he have the courage to look into the face of his parents and talk to them (if at all they are brought to him)? Does he ask for forgiveness from the God whose war he was tricked into believing he was fighting? We need to find answers to these questions before we can conclude anything about justice or revenge.

We, the media and the world have endowed upon him a celebrity status second only to Osama Bin Laden (in terrorists). There is however a very fundamental difference between the two. The latter is considered to be the mastermind of the greatest terror attack (read 9/11) while the former is just a pawn of some masterminds who decided to test the resilience of a city and a country to terrorism. How does sentencing the pawn while the masterminds and conspirators are freely walking and scheming more such attacks in a country that pretends to be oblivious to its terror problem mean justice?

Does this sentence discourage the other “pawns” from playing the deadly game. No, it doesn’t sadly. The other pawns are removed from the world training in some training camps, listening to hate speeches and growing hostility inside them to kill more innocent people while feeling lucky that God himself picked them for the great service to their religion. Even if the other pawns learn about Kasab’s fate, they will grow more hatred towards the country and be more motivated to seek revenge for their “soldier” or get fooled into believing that Kasab like the other soldiers has accomplished his “duty” and is finally going to “Jannat” (heaven). Does this mean Kasab’s sentence is counterproductive? No! Sentencing Kasab at the earliest will mean more funds for the government to concentrate on the welfare programs. Enough of money (read more than 39 crores) and time has been wasted on him.

Justice does not just mean sentencing Kasab and celebrating the verdict. Justice means restoration of normalcy in the lives of victims. Justice means punishing the conspirators and stopping them from poisoning more young vulnerable minds. Justice means not having to see such an attack. Justice means more allocation of budget for development. Justice means forgetting that this ever happened. Justice means being able to sleep without any fear. Let us not celebrate and forget that the task is still not complete and we have a long way to go.


While Kasab is only the arrow and more such arrows will keep coming till the marksman exists, let us not forget that being an arrow doesn’t make Kasab any less of a culprit.


P.S: Watch this video to understand the role of the handlers and the terrorists 'on the job'


Wednesday, March 24, 2010

What do you want to be when you grow big?

This is a question we all have been posed in our early childhood. Early childhood was when we had no idea of what the world was like and all we knew was that Popeye who ate spinach to give him strength to beat up Bluto who was more than double his size was cool. That the hero who beats up a villain and millions of the villain’s sidekicks was macho. So, if the hero was a truck driver we wanted to be one. Popeye was a sailor so we wanted to be a sailor. We laugh out loud at the innocence of a child who proudly declares that he wants to be a bus conductor when he grows up without realizing that it was the innocence in us that allowed us to pose such a question. It is ironic that when no one really knows what one wants to be, they are asked a million times by everybody regarding what they will grow up to be but, when you grow big enough to make such a decision nobody is bothered because the entire world has already decided what you should be.

In this process we never realize what we truly want to be, what is our true calling. We are never encouraged to find out the answer. There is not so much time. IIT and Medical special coaching is started at class 5 itself. Your parents want you to be a doctor because they think they did not have a chance to be one and you are their chance to fulfill their unfulfilled dream. By the time you reach class 10 you realize that doctor is the last thing you want to be but, sorry son too late. 5 years of special coaching later you cannot say so. Especially with so much money spent on you.

So you slog and become a doctor when you wanted to be someone else. You don’t complain either as the money is good. All you care about now is money. Why? Because you have been told time and again, directly and indirectly that money is all we need.

Now, you have accumulated a lot of money, bought yourself a big car, an air conditioner, a costly sofa set and you are still not happy. Work pressure, stress you blame them. Somebody suggests, take a vacation. You go on one. You return and do well for 2 months and again the emptiness, hollowness returns and so you go on another break. The cycle never breaks. You are never really happy. Why? Because you don’t truly love what you do. Ok you became good at this by doing it for all the years. Ok you know nothing but this. So, keep doing it. It’s too late to complain.

Ok. Put that aside do you know what you love to do?

No. Why? You have never been allowed to find out. Your inner voice was always drowned by others opinions and suggestions. You hope badly to know what you truly love to do but, you don’t find out because you never knew in the first place what you were good at and now the inner voice is muted, dead.

Every parent wants their child to be an engineer from IIT or a doctor from the biggest college in the country, after all its a matter of pride. Has the parent ever looked into the eye of its child and asked, “Beta, tell me what you want to be... Whatever... I will stand by you and help you become that.”

Never.... Anything other than doctor or engineer is not safe, its risky. They want us to be doing something that is safe and not something we like. It is their responsibility to get you into a safe spot in life. Wrong.

It’s their responsibility to help you realize what you truly love and what you deem worthy of doing for the rest of your life.

Now, don’t get me started on love. Love is a strangled word. We are only told about 2 types of love all our life. One, motherly love or family love. Two, girl/boy love. Of course, all the movies are busy glorifying the “type two” love. All the movies that attempt to glorify “type one” love are panned as being too senti, emotional, melodramatic.

Now, no one talks about the true love. Don’t we need to love something we spend doing for more than half of our life? Work. No one cares about that or even talks. The one who talks has gone mad or is dreaming because he is clearly talking something that no one else had the courage to think. So, he is wrong.

This brings us to the point of social acceptability. Why is the son of a engineer mocked at for aspiring to be an actor or director? Why is the son of a barber considered a very ambitious person for aspiring to be a doctor? Because, it is the way society has decided it to be. An actor’s son should be an actor. A doctors son, a doctor. Why? It’s in the genes.

Now answer this. What if the doctor is a better actor and became a doctor by accident? Who cares? No time for such stuff. That accident was a blessing in disguise, they say.

We are too sucked into this society thing without realizing that we can also give direction to what is socially acceptable.

Was Amitabh Bachchan’s father an actor? What if he had not risked trying to be an actor and instead been a doctor?

I know. We would miss a legend but that’s a different story altogether. Why? Because amitabh is not your son.

Ok now leave it. What’s your problem? I am a doctor and am not very happy. So what, my wife has enough money to shop every week and my kids go to the best coaching centre. At least they are happy.

Hmm.. You wish... Now, did you ask your children what they wanted to be? Yes, of course I know. They want to be engineers.... Like your parents knew you wanted to be a doctor? I ask.


Look... Love marriages were not socially accepted till sometime back but, now many parents proudly boast it as a symbol of modernity in their thinking and wider perspective.

Do you realize why your kids now have to face so much competition, when you could do away with one-tenth of this competition? The answer is simple because back then people wanted to be many things... Now all the parents want their child to be the same thing and so this competition. All the parents want their children to be “Another brick in the wall”...”another face in the crowd”